About two months before the birth of one of my babies I would start to feel it…. the nagging fear, the whispered lie, the terrible truth: I’m not enough. My days are only so long (or so short) I can’t be stretched any thinner. I can’t be in two places at one time. What if both need me at the same time? How can I possibly love another human being as much as my husband? How can I possibly love another baby as much as my first baby? Read How to Navigate the Seasons of Motherhood
My heart is only so big.
The true miracle of childbirth extends far beyond the actual baby, it reaches out to the whole family. My favourite part is what God does in each family members hearts. As the baby is growing and stretching inside the Mom, God is preparing the family to grow and stretch to receive the new family member. It is a whole new person who will have its own quirks and personality and opinions. The family dynamic will inevitably change and grow. But the very best part of all is that every time you add a new family member, your hearts multiply because of the new opportunities to love. And as cheesy and Hallmark card-sounding as that may seem, once you’ve experienced it, it is so life-changing and amazing and makes you remember that God is in charge of the whole thing. And I think that’s the point. To remember that God is in charge of the whole thing. Because soon enough, the dirty diapers do pile up, the spit up gets everywhere, the crying doesn’t stop, everyone wants your attention at the same time, and the hours run out in the day. And you will be reminded that you are not enough. And that’s ok. Because you aren’t supposed to be….. When God is in charge of the whole thing, HE IS ENOUGH for it all, and we just have to focus on Him and cling to Him on the hard days and seasons